HOLDING that little hand......

As parents we all have those little fears. One of your kids is going to brake a bone. One will be teased, lose the race, won't be picked for a game. As parents we also have those big fears. They get stolen, we pick up the phone of hear their was a accident, or we sit at the doctors office and have the doctor say "I am sorry but your son has a diseases. He isn't healthy, and he isn't growing."

At that moment in time your heart drops. You aren't sure if you want to cry, scream, or hit something. All you can think about is that sweet little boy and his smiling face. How you held him late at night when we was sick. Wiped his tears away when he fell. Sat and readied to him, and held his little hand. Gave him loves for no reason! All of this was going through my mind yesterday as I sat and listen to the doctor say "Ethan has a diseases. He isn't healthy and he isn't growing."

The rest of the day yesterday I ran around with Ethan getting labs done, and talking with more doctors. So last night when we finally made it home and I finally got to sit down the tears started.

We have some questions answered, more test to run, more un-answered questions, more doctors appt, but for right now I am just going to sit and hold my baby boy!

Ethan, dad and I love you so much! The road that we are heading down is going to be long. I wish I could say that it won't hurt or that you won't cry. But please know that we will hurt with you and cry with you! You are not alone! Mom and Dad will be here to HOLD that little hand all the way! We love you little guy! :)